“Most people see fear as a weakness, it can be. Sometimes for my job I have to put fear in other people. I know it’s not right, but if I’m honest, I have to be ruthless, because failure is not an option. 
The same goes for my sobriety, I have to be ruthless for myself. I have to use my fear. It makes me stronger. 
Like everyone in this room, I can’t control who I am, but I can control the zero.
Fuck the zero.”